Tuesday, November 09, 2004

woweeeee... only like. 5 papers out of 14 are over and guess what??? i feel like celebrating liao haha... hmm lets see... gp was well... gp. always the same lah! den chem was qt good! and maths too! and bio was well... tough? but ok lah! God was good to me!! all praise to Him :) but i feel super sad for shella now... she has dengue!!! like the worst possible time to get it is during ur As lah... gosh. super poor thing man!!! she really looked super sick these past few days lah... hiyo.daddy said dengue would cure in abt a week liddat so hopefully she will be ok for the rest of the papers!

anyway ive just finished this book called "whats so amazing about grace??" and its a really good book! like. i dunno i guess before i read it i never really thought about what grace was and how truly amazing it is... but now its like i really see that wow! God loved ME so much tt He loves me and came down to die for me! its so amazing... like i geuss after a while especially if we are like "born christians" we will tend to overlook this wonderful thing... but its really like the centre of our faith! and the bookw as also talking abt homosexuality and phillip yancey was like saying abt how he found out tt one of his really good frens is a gay and like still a christian and how just cos they are gay or wad doesnt mean that they cant be christians and love God as much as we do. i mean of cos its not right lah and stuff but we all sin but we still love God and its the same thing. and i guess... i dunno for myself i tend to like think of someone being gay as something bad and like... i guess if i knew someone was gay i would treat him differently... but well i guess i better change! and the book said soemthing that touched me qt alot... it was like saying tt hey we look at pple "more sinful" than ourselves like murderers and prostitues and stuff and like kinda shun them or like say bad things abt them or like bitch abt them and stuff but Jesus was PERFECT and He came to earth and had to spend 33 years with sinners like all of us! if He could take living with "normal" people like us we shld learn to live with each other too right... yeah and i guess it really made me think long and hard about my actions and behaviour... when people see me do they see God's grace? or do they just see someone who is like any other person, who complains like non christians do, and bitches like non christians do and basically lives like a non christian? he was like saying in the book that grace is the only thing that the church has that nothing else in the world has, cos its against human nature to have grace thus it only came about when Jesus taught it to us... like in other religions, they all teach tt u must do good things to get good in return but only in our faith is redemption free! how amazing!! theres just alot alot alot that i learnt from this book and i reccommend it to everyone! i made a new resolution: to live a life of grace! i looked at my life and saw ungrace and unforgiveness and pride and i am so turned off by myself. in the book were examples of so many pple who lived lives of grace like this guy who went to minister to ku klux klanners hu killed his super good friend and people like that who din just forgive, they went and did good to the people that the world tells them they should hate!and well... i wanna be like them! so to all my friends out there, help me be a more graceful person! heh. cos i cant do it alone man :)

oooooo! kamya is gonna be in chennai when me and char are there! so cool. maybe we will get to meet her heh. was talking to aakash gobs and sunand today... and i really really hope that we will remain frens! tho like gobs is so negative :s aakash said he wun hang up on me if i call him haha. :)